Recently I have been looking into aspects of my life to find areas to improve upon, unfortunately it turns out I need to improve several. One resolution is to take care of things immediately which is much more difficult than it sounds. In this society everything needs to be done yesterday by you, but the other parties can take as long as they like and make deadlines according to what works for their schedule as opposed to the length of time it would actually take to complete a task.
That aside, I began to wonder if some of my short comings may be due to personality issues within myself as opposed to just being a lazy person. According to an online personality test, which I'm sure is completely inaccurate, it looks as if I have an avoid ant personality. The listed symptoms did happen in my life, feeling awkward in social situations, worried about doing good and detailed work, having a rich fantasy life and so forth. So as I drew connections between this list of symptoms and my life it occurred to me that these statements could work for just about everyone just as horoscopes are so general that they apply to everyone.
After investing the time and thought into it I can't believe what a waist of time it was, then again I was avoiding folding the laundry while doing the online research and am still avoiding it by writing this blog so perhaps there is something to it.
lots of self examination at this time. why did I allow people to take advantage of me and hurt me? why did I allow my own life to swallow me? I knew all my choices were my own so why was I doing it?
ReplyDeletetook me all spring and then in June I really had it figured out